Thoughts of an Angel Mommy, Chapter Five

  Just finished the book, What Happened To You. I plan to buy the book now, so I can re-read and share the parts I’ve enjoyed. It was so great, and I believe this book has been a key in my most recent growth as a person, and healing. If you haven’t read ‘WHAT HAPPENED TO YOU?’ CONVERSATIONS ON TRAUMA, RESILIENCE, AND HEALING, by BRUCE D. PERRY, MD, PAD, and OPRAH WINFREY, this is the moment where I recommend highly, maybe you should! This book is for those who have or don’t have a difficult or traumatic past, or have family, friends, acquaintances, children, or others; who have big or triggered emotions when they are upset or are having a challenge regulating themselves. Feel free to raise your hand if you feel like any of these relate to you. If you’ve ever felt lost, or have heartbreaking memories in your past, this book is for you. If you’d like to know how other people may be experiencing and feeling, this book is for you. If you know someone who is struggling at work, or ...

  I’m feeling so exhausted tonight. Rough bedtime transition, it’s hard to be a parent after multiple losses, including your child’s sibling that they got to meet. I just wish there was a solution and also, that I had been a more emotionally calm person years ago. Inner guilt is something I don’t wish to linger on, so I’m going to try to extend myself grace and forgiveness. We can only do the best we can with the information we have at the time. So the past stays in the past, we can learn from our experience, and that knowledge can help shape our present and future. I just hope the future finally helps bring each one of us in this household, peace.

 Originally shared from my Facebook Page, Holding Onto Hope . February 21st, 2023. Click here to see the original Facebook post .  " Hello and good afternoon. I hope today finds you as well as can be. I wanted to do something today that is a little out of my comfort zone, make a video and sing a song. This video is unedited, and me. Nervous, anxious, self-conscious, and rusty vocals. No filters, no makeup, and no prep time beforehand. *Editing to add that this is more just myself talking, as I forgot that melody part way through the song, so thanks for listening.* My heart has a large great of thanks to our friends who invited us to First United Methodist Church Blue Springs , one year ago was our first visit, and we have been attending ever since. I feel like a part of a caring, compassionate community, my spiritual family, and thankful to be a part of a wonderful Life Group of parents. Even my kiddo is growing spiritually as person and I enjoy watching him as he figures out...

Grief counseling, haircut, energy work, thrift-store browsing, and seeing friends at the PTA meeting. Today was exactly what my heart needed. Introducing this more enlightened, open hearted, full of hope and love, spiritual, more mentally and emotionally stable; me. 😌💚 Its been quite the week of realizations and growth. Looking forward to what this part of my life blossoms into. Finding the peace with acceptance, we have no idea what awaits us in the future, we learn from the past, and make the most of our moments that help shape the future. Remember to be kind to yourself. Much love and thanks to everyone who’s been there for me, and my family, while I walk this unknown path, and guide myself through the fog to a clear horizon. 💗

  Sunday, January 15th, 2023, was a day I remember. Thankfully, photographs I've taken over the past years, have helped me remember days like this.  Visiting family in the St. Louis area to celebrate my 42nd birthday. A weekend of joy, and also a weekend of pain and tears. However before I discuss my day in what detail I remember, I wish to go back in time a little bit further.  It was the year of 2006, I was preparing to go into lumbar spinal surgery and hopeful it would help with the lumbar disc degeneration, pain, and other uncomfortable difficulties. At the time this was not something I decided on lightly, and I took a lot of faith and trust into the neurosurgeon I was a patient with at the time. Of course, years later I would learn that not only did this surgeon operate on a patient that caused a malpractice law suit to arise, the patient died. Upon further research, information that was not available years prior, years of malpractice suits from multiple patients. I ...