Thoughts of an Angel Mommy, Chapter Five

  I’ve been compiling a list this past week. I hope to be ready for an update in a few days. There is no easy way to talk about all the details, so thank you for your patience. Photo from a few days ago, myself at the doctor’s office listening to my audio book, wearing my Love Out Loud T-shirt.

  I could really use some thoughts, prayers and positivity this morning. My neck MRI is today and hoping for answers as to why I’ve been in pain for so long now. Pain and tingling in the back of my neck, restricted muscles around the area of pain, and weakness, numbness and pain down both arms. It’s been a journey and I’m more than ready, and hopefully I finally get the relief and healing I’ve needed. Thank you all for your continued support! Scrubs for this morning’s neck MRI. I have to say, it’s not my least favorite scan I’ve done, however it wasn’t great either. Was challenging to hold myself still with my neck pain, my shoulder, arms & wrist pain, low back pain, and my right drop-foot sagging down for about 45-or-so minutes. Was told my orthopedic doctor and my patient portal, should have results sent in within 24 hours. Fingers crossed this helps provide answers. I’ve been doing scans like this for around 17.5 years. As well as multiple surgeries. Thank you for your conti...

  Last week I went in to see my orthopedic doctor in Lee’s Summit. He did an EMG on my neck (checking nerve responses and also using needles, ouch!). I’ve been having pain and tingling for years in my neck. This has also caused me to have restricted movement. When I sleep on my sides, at times it feels near impossible to get comfortable without pain starting at my neck, my shoulders, then all the way down my arms to my fingertips with numbness. I learned that the last four years, since I had the EMG done, that my carpal tunnel in both wrists is now so severe that I will need to see a hand specialist, for outpatient surgery. Of course I am waiting until after I get my new walking brace for my drop foot, as to not do any new damage to my wrists after surgery. My brace appointment has also been delayed due to it not arriving a month after my custom mold was done. By the time I finally get my walking brace, so long that it actually arrives on time, it will be about two months of waitin...

Today's appointment was not what I expected, I plan to give things more time, as who I met with today, gets to know me. I may continue to search for another practice, unsure. Suggestions welcome for psychiatry. I was told today that I am quite articulate, suppose I'll take that as a compliment.

  Tomorrow morning is my first psychiatry appointment. Been unable to do much today as the weight of the world feels like it’s on my shoulders. The physical aches and pains don’t help either.