Thoughts of an Angel Mommy, Chapter Five

I wanted to share a song I’ve been working on for months. I began in March and finally finished today, in August, when the lyrics were singing through my mind. Almost like a part of me was saying, “You are ready to write again.”  I’ve experienced a lot in this lifetime. Through a challenging childhood, surgeries, disability, physical ailments that have been causing all numbers of difficulties. Multiple deaths in my families, over half a dozen lost pregnancies. And the latest from the past few years has been the hardest. My joints and nerves constantly battling one another, osteoarthritis and fibromyalgia diagnosis (to which I already had suspected the fibromyalgia for years). Watching closely for other physical signs that could arise.  Even though I’m losing my physical strength, and ability to walk, I’ve not lost my mind, nor lost my hope. I am going forward and holding onto hope, while remaining realistic. Thank goodness for my optimism, it’s helped me when I’ve been in surv...

  This was me a few days ago… Smiling through the pain. Just in case anyone wonders why I am not smiling all the time, this is one reason. ‘Fibromyalgia’ flare up, nerve spasms, full body pains, and even the drop in temperature did something to me that day. I have said for a long time, like a broken record, that I’m always feeling cold, and my body pains get worse when it’s hot, however I like the warmer temperatures and I prefer ice packs to help calm my nerves or aches and pains down… Oh my, that’s a lot. I feel like I was in such a habit over the last few years to state what was mentioned above, and my declining health distracted me. Honestly, I do best around the temperature of 72-75 degrees. These past few months my body has been experiencing a lot of change, and I feel that whatever undiagnosed element is happening inside of my body, is beginning to show itself. I finally have an appointment to see a rheumatologist. Hopeful for answers so I can better know how to take care of...