Thoughts of an Angel Mommy, Chapter Five

I wanted to share a song I’ve been working on for months. I began in March and finally finished today, in August, when the lyrics were singing through my mind. Almost like a part of me was saying, “You are ready to write again.”  I’ve experienced a lot in this lifetime. Through a challenging childhood, surgeries, disability, physical ailments that have been causing all numbers of difficulties. Multiple deaths in my families, over half a dozen lost pregnancies. And the latest from the past few years has been the hardest. My joints and nerves constantly battling one another, osteoarthritis and fibromyalgia diagnosis (to which I already had suspected the fibromyalgia for years). Watching closely for other physical signs that could arise.  Even though I’m losing my physical strength, and ability to walk, I’ve not lost my mind, nor lost my hope. I am going forward and holding onto hope, while remaining realistic. Thank goodness for my optimism, it’s helped me when I’ve been in surv...

  Do you ever find it interesting how life keeps you on your toes? Here we all are, traveling down this road together, page after page of new chapters; yet all having our own individual experiences. Making memories, hopefully growing and learning as we gain wisdom. I’m grateful that my mind woke up a few months ago, and find it fascinating that now that I am more “in tune” or have a sense of wakefulness, that I notice how much more quickly time is passing by. Taking advantage of what I can achieve while I have the time to do so. We never know when our last moment will be. I decided months ago that I’m not going to worry about all the little things anymore, that I will make the most of everything and live!! Best decision I’ve made in some time.

  I’ve been compiling a list this past week. I hope to be ready for an update in a few days. There is no easy way to talk about all the details, so thank you for your patience. Photo from a few days ago, myself at the doctor’s office listening to my audio book, wearing my Love Out Loud T-shirt.

  Today was my mental health day… and it didn’t begin that way. It’s been an extremely physically rough last three months. Believe it or not, I haven’t taken a lot of downtime. I felt selfish at first for doing so, and then reminded myself that other errands and chores will be taken care of all in good time. I can only do as much as my body and energy will allow at the time. So, no health updates. However prayers are greatly appreciated!! Namaste.