Thoughts of an Angel Mommy, Chapter Five

  Last week I went in to see my orthopedic doctor in Lee’s Summit. He did an EMG on my neck (checking nerve responses and also using needles, ouch!). I’ve been having pain and tingling for years in my neck. This has also caused me to have restricted movement. When I sleep on my sides, at times it feels near impossible to get comfortable without pain starting at my neck, my shoulders, then all the way down my arms to my fingertips with numbness. I learned that the last four years, since I had the EMG done, that my carpal tunnel in both wrists is now so severe that I will need to see a hand specialist, for outpatient surgery. Of course I am waiting until after I get my new walking brace for my drop foot, as to not do any new damage to my wrists after surgery. My brace appointment has also been delayed due to it not arriving a month after my custom mold was done. By the time I finally get my walking brace, so long that it actually arrives on time, it will be about two months of waitin...

  Late night enlightening thoughts. Are you going to keep moving forward or are you going to fall backwards? Ironically enough, at the time I thought of this, it had nothing to do with anything other than a desire to not fall up or down the flight of stairs due to difficulty with holding onto the rail, or putting too much stress on my right ankle. As I continue forward in my life, I have really appreciated these moments of clarity and enlightenment. Hopefully this gives you something to think about too.