Thoughts of an Angel Mommy, Chapter Five

  Here you go, a smile photo of myself with teeth showing. For me, now, my smiles and laughter are situational. So if I don’t share many photos like this, it’s because those other moments weren’t captured. For example, I had to pose this smile and it didn’t feel natural. Also, I’ve been saying for years that I find things funny, however not everything makes me laugh,.. still true to a degree. I feel like with a lot of the physical decline I’ve been experiencing, it’s taught me to keep going. And so long as I have my mind, able to talk, recognize people, and retain some memory; I’ll be ok. I’m going to continue living my life and do what brings me joy and makes me happy.

  This was me a few days ago… Smiling through the pain. Just in case anyone wonders why I am not smiling all the time, this is one reason. ‘Fibromyalgia’ flare up, nerve spasms, full body pains, and even the drop in temperature did something to me that day. I have said for a long time, like a broken record, that I’m always feeling cold, and my body pains get worse when it’s hot, however I like the warmer temperatures and I prefer ice packs to help calm my nerves or aches and pains down… Oh my, that’s a lot. I feel like I was in such a habit over the last few years to state what was mentioned above, and my declining health distracted me. Honestly, I do best around the temperature of 72-75 degrees. These past few months my body has been experiencing a lot of change, and I feel that whatever undiagnosed element is happening inside of my body, is beginning to show itself. I finally have an appointment to see a rheumatologist. Hopeful for answers so I can better know how to take care of...