Thoughts of an Angel Mommy, Chapter Five

I wanted to share a song I’ve been working on for months. I began in March and finally finished today, in August, when the lyrics were singing through my mind. Almost like a part of me was saying, “You are ready to write again.”  I’ve experienced a lot in this lifetime. Through a challenging childhood, surgeries, disability, physical ailments that have been causing all numbers of difficulties. Multiple deaths in my families, over half a dozen lost pregnancies. And the latest from the past few years has been the hardest. My joints and nerves constantly battling one another, osteoarthritis and fibromyalgia diagnosis (to which I already had suspected the fibromyalgia for years). Watching closely for other physical signs that could arise.  Even though I’m losing my physical strength, and ability to walk, I’ve not lost my mind, nor lost my hope. I am going forward and holding onto hope, while remaining realistic. Thank goodness for my optimism, it’s helped me when I’ve been in surv...

  Here you go, a smile photo of myself with teeth showing. For me, now, my smiles and laughter are situational. So if I don’t share many photos like this, it’s because those other moments weren’t captured. For example, I had to pose this smile and it didn’t feel natural. Also, I’ve been saying for years that I find things funny, however not everything makes me laugh,.. still true to a degree. I feel like with a lot of the physical decline I’ve been experiencing, it’s taught me to keep going. And so long as I have my mind, able to talk, recognize people, and retain some memory; I’ll be ok. I’m going to continue living my life and do what brings me joy and makes me happy.

  I’ve been compiling a list this past week. I hope to be ready for an update in a few days. There is no easy way to talk about all the details, so thank you for your patience. Photo from a few days ago, myself at the doctor’s office listening to my audio book, wearing my Love Out Loud T-shirt.

  Once I have everything ready, I plan to share. It’s a lot, all at once. And I can’t avoid it any longer. Prayers and hope are appreciated!!

  You can only joke and laugh it off, for so long, until the reality of how bad it is catches up with you. New health update upcoming…