I am a mother to many who are only with me in memory. Three of those angels I was able to hold in my arms before saying one last final goodbye. One of those angels was born living and passed in my arms. To all who hearts are aching today, I see you and am here with you. Happy Bereaved Mother’s Day!
This past weekend was time with family and Kansas City. I’ve been enjoying time with my kiddo, and cherishing moments with family. Even though life is unexpected and messy, I’m doing my best to move forward and keep staying as active as possible. I want to keep going for my kid, he means the world to me.
Today… It wasn't an easy morning, the past few years has been hard on my family. Other typical daily challenges make everything feel much harder than it needs to be. A look back in time… Yesterday… It felt like a bitter-sweet day. Celebrating my husband's birthday, the joyful moments. Gritting my teeth through the pain my body and ankle gives me. Unless you know me or have been around me during the difficult moments, you may never realize how heartbreaking this degeneration has been for me. Why is my body falling apart? Why can't answers be found? The waiting has been hard on my heart. Wearing my new-to-me shrug / sweater. Channeling my inner dude. Anyone ever watch the movie, The Big Lebowski? I feel so very tired and a little bit overwhelmed these days. Procrastination is frustrating, as I find it challenging to move forward with responsibilities when so much unknown still lies ahead. I find myself taking more photos these days. I try to reme...
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