March 4th, 2023. Asking for Support, and Letting Go.

 Yesterday was a very difficult and emotional day for me. Technology wasn’t working and I basically “lost it” and overwhelmingly cried for the bulk of the entire afternoon. I then reached out to one of the groups I volunteer in, and said I couldn’t get what I needed to, completed on time. It was quite frustrating and I felt like I had failed, and I still feel that way. I should be invincible, right?! No, I am not. Everyone chipped in and helped, I knew they would, however I didn’t want to add to their list of responsibilities. Guess what friends, THIS is what community is about!! Helping each other.

I then made a video that spanned the length of about 45 minutes in total, and shared it on my personal profile. I talked about what’s been happening in my life and opened up about the struggles I’ve been facing. I plan to share here soon, however, hopefully, it will be a little less emotionally charged. I can still count on one hand how many times I’ve cried since November 1st, yesterday was a the largest release of tears yet.

Learning lesson, don’t hold everything in to the point it explodes out of you. Learning lesson two, it seems not many people watch videos unless they are entertaining, short ha ha here as I roll my eyes and shake my head a little. Yes that is right, real life and the challenges we face is not that entertaining. That’s ok though, as this has been more for myself, like a video journal.

Hope you all have been doing well and taking care of yourself. Self-care is so important!! Thank you for your continued support, prayers, mantras, and positivity! It means the world all who have reached out and are there supporting myself and my family.