If My Life Were A Poem.

 

Unconditional love, bright lights, cries, warmth, growth, conditions, fears, years.

Dark river, drowning, gasping for air, waves crashing down, drifting to the ocean.

Rocking Horse, forward, back, forward, back, sunshine, laughter, bright smiles. 

STOP ACTING LIKE A CHILD!

Tears, black, blue, gas-lit, desperate prayers, disappointment, deaths, guilt.

Loneliness, confusion, longing, missing, bad decisions, buried trauma.

School, field trips, teacher's pet, drifting, friends, changes, sleepovers.

Last freshmen year of middle school, driving, high school dances.

Choir, band, drama, photography, multiple clubs, hang outs, fast food.

Misdirection, deception, unknowing, denial, car crash, braces, intentional plea.

SOMEONE LISTEN TO ME!

Misrepresentation, celebrations, competitions, awards, ribbons, graduation.

Unsaid words, searching for meaning, kinship, connection, whirlwind, breathless. 

Exposed, happiness, quick courtship, I Do, honeymoon, collage rejection, injury.

WHY IS THIS HAPPENING TO ME?

Surgery, quick comeback, newlywed delight, striving for a foundling. 

Seeking, golden years, ignored wellness, decline, degeneration, successive surgeries.

Permanent nerve damage, drop foot, physical relearning, wheelchair, walker, braces, canes.

YOU ARE TOO YOUNG TO HAVE THESE PROBLEMS, they tell me.

Denied sadness, spiraling downward, hopeless, hopeful, life reworking, growth.

Society skepticism, dietary alterations, thoughts of the past, driven reflections of the future.

Fast forward in time....

Transformation, metamorphosis, hello beautiful. 

  

((I began writing this about a month ago, and couldn't find time or a way to reach for the words to finish it.)) Hopefully one day, I can talk about the past and every chapter I've walked through along the way.